I’m rattled. I’m rattled by every single thing that’s going on in the world right now. I’m shaken! I’m confused! I’m lost! I’m angry! I feel like someone blind folded me, drove me to the middle of nowhere, walked me out into an empty field, spun me around a few times, and then left me there to figure out where I am and how to get home with no supplies.
I’m scared because everything that’s happened between March of 2020 and now has made me question EVERYTHING about myself.
My morals, values, dreams, goals & purpose in life.
I’m all of these things, but I also feel like someone lit a fire under my ass. I’m invigorated, full of hope, full of drive & ambition to do more, to do better, and to be part of major change in this world.
I have an overwhelming urge to go back to school for civil or human rights. I want to be a part of something bigger. I want to a part of change that happens in the world, and not just here on some social media post (though I do believe that social media plays it’s part too). I want to be out in the real world, making real change!
I want to get my hands dirty and devote my life to something more.
Right now I don’t know exactly what that is, or what direction I’m being lead in, or what any of what I just said even means, or if it makes sense.
All I know for sure is that I’ve had enough of this broken machine and I want no part of it anymore. I want so desperately to be a part of this new world we’re building together, and no, I don’t think this is a just a phase this time. Call me naive, but I truly believe we are waking up and we’re literally building a new world. This will take time, a long time, but it’s not impossible!
Bear with me as I cocoon myself and grow into whatever next version of me is in the works 🦋
In the meantime I will continue to use this platform to hold space for healing & navigating the most important part of you…your soul & your mind, for this is where all great ideas, change, and revolutions are born. I’m here to hold space for you. I will continue to do this to the best of my ability until I figure out what’s next ❤️
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